life sucks

[deralte]

I am having an awful day. This morning I went searching through my ever growing pile of books to read and discovered that a trilogy my scifi/fantasy loving friend at the hospital lent me, has disappeared. They'd been right out in the open so I'd remember to read them first, but had disappeared from sight while my Dad went about spray painting things and leaving them to dry in the front room (which is where I leave anything I get from the hospital as a form of quarantine). I thought he had just moved them, but when I asked him I discovered to my horror that he'd thrown out a bunch of books the other day without asking me, despite the fact that the front room is also where I fumigate any old books I buy against bed bugs. There were books out there to be thrown away, but they were all in a box on top of the tool cabinet. I know it's not the end of the world if he did throw them away (he says he probably did, but is looking for them now), but it'll cost me money and time to get them back, not to mention make me look like a bit of an idiot in front of my friend. I'm also confused as to how he could ever have confused a book with aliens on it for one of the historical christian novels which I'd put in the throw away box.

On that upsetting note, I went to Korean class. We'd been told that half the class failed the ch 2 vocab quiz (I got three wrong myself, which on a 10 point quiz is awful... and the reason why is because she was crazy and taught a grammar point the quiz was on, right before she gave the quiz which meant that we had to use a new grammar point *and* remember the 47 words that were on the quiz and you lost all points for just mispelling a word, even if you got the grammar correct). Anyway, since she was so appalled, she offered us a second vocab quiz which I expected would be easier so we didn't all fail again (and her vocab quizzes are usually multiple choice and fill in the blanks). Lo and behold, it was one of the hardest quizzes she'd given so far (and I got a fucking 92 on the first lesson test so it's not like I'm not learning the language here). We had to listen to her say the dictionary forms of some of the hardest and easiest verbs and adjectives in the vocab list, then write them, their meaning in English and conjugate them in Korean. I can conjugate fine and I know their meanings, but I can't spell by sound cause everything sounds different when it's pronounced. I've been trying desperately to memorize the spelling of all these adjectives this whole week because I figured they'd be on the lesson test next week, but I expected to have five days of studying them over and over, not be asked to recall them today. I've been studying for hours each day, so it's awful to get a worse (or at least, similar) grade on a second quiz when I've been reviewing those words over and over for the past three days. I told her I was having trouble understanding what she was saying and then spelling it and she just said, "you'll get it eventually", which, well, duh, but what about my grades until then? I'm beginning to hate her.

This is on top of the fact that I work full time this weekend, have tons of homework due Monday, have to forgo going to the bujinkan camp this weekend because I can't afford it due to my health insurance hike up, haven't had the time to do the phd place research I need to work on, and a million other little things that are going wrong and I don't have the time to fix.

I really want to just go home now, but I have Japanese later, and there better not be anything else happening today because I can't take any more. I wish I were at home where I could hug my Appa plushie and cry.

Comments

[ashfae.livejournal.com]

Oh man, this all sucks. Lots of hugs. =(

[jjhunter]

Appa makes everything better. I'm right there with you on the finances--you inspired me to go to my first bujinkan class last Saturday (it was awesome! and free), but I don't have the money to continue going until at least next month. And that's with the increased hours at work.

Your Korean teacher sounds evil. Just saying.

Best of luck with it all (wish you didn't need it),
-Idhren

[c0d3-w4rri0r.livejournal.com]

I understand well. I hate loosing books and thankfully that very rarely happens. The only non human thing worse is loosing something personal like a keep sake or your holiday snaps or worst of all a journal. Believe me I feel your pain. I can empathise with the exam too. I hate doing badly but it's so much worse when you feel it's not even your fault. Like the time my university lost half of my answers to an exam.