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Hmm, I haven't updated for a few days, have I? Am not in a good mood, I guess. I'm feeling guilty about not writing my book, since that was the reason I took this year out in the first place. It's not like I have writer's block or anything (I don't believe in writer's block to tell the truth...), I just don't seem to be opening up the file and actually doing any writing. Part of this is my mentality that I shouldn't be writing until I have a job, and another part is that I don't write well while at home. My mum has no sense of privacy and likes to walk in every hour or so, and at my dad's I get oddly distracted. Of course, it doesn't help that I've been procrastinating my own life by watching anime and reading fic.
It's not like I've been doing that badly on the job search. I'm making it into the top ten candidates of most of these places, (as far as I can tell...), but some of them are so slow it's driving me insane. I want to get a job and get out of here since living at home is like being nibbled to death by hamsters. I'm not all that picky either. I just want a full time job that leaves my evenings free to write, and gives me enough money to live on my own. I'd happily get a job in a bookshop somewhere or something, but I can't afford to live on my own in NJ, and it's really difficult to look for jobs like that from far away. Better paying jobs are easier to find (relatively), but they are terribly slow to respond, and I despair for jobs that I've applied for recently since I probably won't hear about them for weeks. In the meantime, there are short term arch. jobs I could take, but I wouldn't get any writing done on them (most involve living in a hotel for a few weeks somewhere).
I need to be out of here and settled on my own to get some serious writing done, because living in limbo isn't helping, and it's frustrating that there's nothing I can do about it. I have to start looking for grad schools on top of this soon too.
It's not like I've been doing that badly on the job search. I'm making it into the top ten candidates of most of these places, (as far as I can tell...), but some of them are so slow it's driving me insane. I want to get a job and get out of here since living at home is like being nibbled to death by hamsters. I'm not all that picky either. I just want a full time job that leaves my evenings free to write, and gives me enough money to live on my own. I'd happily get a job in a bookshop somewhere or something, but I can't afford to live on my own in NJ, and it's really difficult to look for jobs like that from far away. Better paying jobs are easier to find (relatively), but they are terribly slow to respond, and I despair for jobs that I've applied for recently since I probably won't hear about them for weeks. In the meantime, there are short term arch. jobs I could take, but I wouldn't get any writing done on them (most involve living in a hotel for a few weeks somewhere).
I need to be out of here and settled on my own to get some serious writing done, because living in limbo isn't helping, and it's frustrating that there's nothing I can do about it. I have to start looking for grad schools on top of this soon too.